I feel like the greatest shit today but it's too ridiculous to talk about this with people, that's why I write here cause no one ever reads this.
I haven't felt this lonely for months. Maybe I've been this alone other times but now, i think i can't handle it as i used to.
No one ever asks and i'm lame at interacting with people. i guess that's why i don't have anybody out of this house really. neither online. It's no one's fault but mine i guess. i don't even know what i'm doing. i used to be so much different. i can say i was even cheerful and now i make myself miserable.
everyone's better than me in so many ways.
I'm out of place and it doesn't even matter where ia m cause it's always out. everyone has close people and i can't keep anyone beside me.
is fucking frustrating to be so socially unable, it makes everything twice harder and you 100 lower.
i feel so terrible bad...




This is the most egocentric bullshit i've ever written